Sunday, August 09, 2009

It's Been A Month

not my longest absence -- but certainly an unpardonable one, given that i spent so many mornings and evenings in july sitting in front of my computer, staring at it or into the middle distance (grey's anatomy or gmail on the screen, so who cares? nothing was really *changing* or anything...)

now i'm back in philadelphia for the long haul, my hair pinned back in a sensible but odd-looking (because stunted) bun, in front of a different computer, thinking all the time thinking thinking. the to-do list grows longer shorter longer shorter. i should be in bed, but i am paralyzed by the fear that, once i go to bed, i will not want to wake up early in the morning and be productive. i am in a rut, the august rut that in school would have been the june rut: there's tons to get done, but i want so badly to deny that anything is actually important that in the end i get my way, and do facebook and livejournal and blogger, at the ridiculous and avoidable expense of more stress in the days to come.

no matter, i swam today. and someone outside -- maybe a member of the band i read lives across the street from me? but no, they were punk, or something -- is playing a trumpet or trombone or some other kind of wind instrument, alone, random, soothing. no matter.

the universe colludes: i have been thinking about monster books. tim carmody suggested erving goffmann's stigma. now i'm reading mel micir's old blog and i find this, as irrelevant to my life right now as bacon (the author, not the meat) but something i know i want to tuck away -- or put on display -- for inevitable future use:

"It is rare in 'natural' conversation that the best answer is provided on the spot, rare that witty repartee occurs. . . . Indeed, when during informal talk a reply is provided that is as good as the one that could be later thought up, then a memorable event has occurred." (Goffmann)

tuesday i will entertain in this apartment for the first time since the fall. who cares if the living room ceiling is dripping plaster everywhere!? i want more out of my graduate life, especially if this is to be my last year in philadelphia.

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Saturday, July 04, 2009

All Books, All The Time

i have no idea what the criteria were for this list, but it reminds me how much there is out there, from the last century alone, that i've been wanting to read... now if only i had a year off grad school to actually read post-1900 stuff!

1 Pride and Prejudice - Jane Austen [x]
2 The Lord of the Rings - JRR Tolkien []
3 Jane Eyre - Charlotte Bronte [x]
4 Harry Potter series - JK Rowling []
5 To Kill a Mockingbird - Harper Lee [x]
6 The Bible []
7 Wuthering Heights - Emily Bronte []
8 Nineteen Eighty Four - George Orwell []
9 His Dark Materials - Philip Pullman []
10 Great Expectations - Charles Dickens [x]
11 Little Women - Louisa M Alcott [x]
12 Tess of the D’Urbervilles - Thomas Hardy [x]
13 Catch 22 - Joseph Heller []
14 Complete Works of Shakespeare []
15 Rebecca - Daphne Du Maurier []
16 The Hobbit - JRR Tolkien [x]
17 Birdsong - Sebastian Faulk
18 Catcher in the Rye - JD Salinger [x] (it counts as an x even though i didn't finish it, because the book was horrendous and i made a conscious decision to stop!)
19 The Time Traveler’s Wife - Audrey Niffenegger []
20 Middlemarch - George Eliot []
21 Gone With The Wind - Margaret Mitchell []
22 The Great Gatsby - F Scott Fitzgerald []
23 Bleak House - Charles Dickens 
24 War and Peace - Leo Tolstoy []
25 The Hitch Hiker’s Guide to the Galaxy - Douglas Adams []
26 Brideshead Revisited - Evelyn Waugh []
27 Crime and Punishment - Fyodor Dostoyevsky []
28 Grapes of Wrath - John Steinbeck []
29 Alice in Wonderland - Lewis Carroll [x]
30 The Wind in the Willows - Kenneth Grahame []
31 Anna Karenina - Leo Tolstoy []
32 David Copperfield - Charles Dickens [x]
33 Chronicles of Narnia - CS Lewis (the complete series) []
34 Emma - Jane Austen []
35 Persuasion - Jane Austen []
36 The Lion, The Witch and The Wardrobe - CS Lewis []
37 The Kite Runner - Khaled Hosseini [x]
38 Captain Corelli’s Mandolin - Louis De Bernieres []
39 Memoirs of a Geisha - Arthur Golden [x]
40 Winnie the Pooh - AA Milne []
41 Animal Farm - George Orwell []
42 The Da Vinci Code - Dan Brown [x]
43 One Hundred Years of Solitude - Gabriel Garcia Marquez [x]
44 A Prayer for Owen Meaney - John Irving []
45 The Woman in White - Wilkie Collins []
46 Anne of Green Gables - LM Montgomery []
47 Far From The Madding Crowd - Thomas Hardy []
48 The Handmaid’s Tale - Margaret Atwood []
49 Lord of the Flies - William Golding []
50 Atonement - Ian McEwan []
51 Life of Pi - Yann Martel [x]
52 Dune - Frank Herbert []
53 Cold Comfort Farm - Stella Gibbons []
54 Sense and Sensibility - Jane Austen []
55 A Suitable Boy - Vikram Seth [x]
56 The Shadow of the Wind - Carlos Ruiz Zafon []
57 A Tale Of Two Cities - Charles Dickens [x]
58 Brave New World - Aldous Huxley []
59 The Curious Incident of the Dog in the Night-Time - Mark Haddon [x]
60 Love In The Time Of Cholera - Gabriel Garcia Marquez []
61 Of Mice and Men - John Steinbeck []
62 Lolita - Vladimir Nabokov [x]
63 The Secret History - Donna Tartt []
64 The Lovely Bones - Alice Sebold []
65 Count of Monte Cristo - Alexandre Dumas []
66 On The Road - Jack Kerouac []
67 Jude the Obscure - Thomas Hardy []
68 Bridget Jones’s Diary - Helen Fielding [x]
69 Midnight’s Children - Salman Rushdie [x]
70 Moby Dick - Herman Melville []
71 Oliver Twist - Charles Dickens []
72 Dracula - Bram Stoker []
73 The Secret Garden - Frances Hodgson Burnett []
74 Notes From A Small Island - Bill Bryson []
75 Ulysses - James Joyce []
76 The Inferno – Dante [x]
77 Swallows and Amazons - Arthur Ransome []
78 Germinal - Emile Zola []
79 Vanity Fair - William Makepeace Thackeray []
80 Possession - AS Byatt []
81 A Christmas Carol - Charles Dickens []
82 Cloud Atlas - David Mitchell []
83 The Color Purple - Alice Walker []
84 The Remains of the Day - Kazuo Ishiguro []
85 Madame Bovary - Gustave Flaubert []
86 A Fine Balance - Rohinton Mistry []
87 Charlotte’s Web - EB White [x]
88 The Five People You Meet In Heaven - Mitch Albom []
89 Adventures of Sherlock Holmes - Sir Arthur Conan Doyle []
90 The Faraway Tree Collection - Enid Blyton [x]
91 Heart of Darkness - Joseph Conrad [x]
92 The Little Prince - Antoine De Saint-Exupery [x]
93 The Wasp Factory - Iain Banks []
94 Watership Down - Richard Adams []
95 A Confederacy of Dunces - John Kennedy Toole []
96 A Town Like Alice - Nevil Shute []
97 The Three Musketeers - Alexandre Dumas []
98 Hamlet - William Shakespeare [x]
99 Charlie and the Chocolate Factory - Roald Dahl [x]
100 Les Miserables - Victor Hugo []

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Monday, March 23, 2009

Interiority

reading hamlet for the 18947th time will get you thinking about inner wiring, for sure.

after this morning's lecture, i was wondering whether it's possible to teach, really teach the play today, when everyone's heard all about it and been taught it before and watched branagh or hawke or someone else play the troubled procrastinator in the movies.

well, sometimes the trick is to scan it all, line by line.

kinda like what this guy does: <http://www.radiologyart.com>, via <http://www.nytimes.com/2009/03/24/science/24scan.html>

(the barbie doll is especially creepy!)

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Tuesday, September 30, 2008

This Is A *Library*?!

i will admit to having been spoiled silly by my undergraduate library. not only did i work there for a year after i graduated, thereby earning for myself joys and privileges that most students could never have (e.g., facetime with the college librarian, quality time with rare books, sitting on the friends of the library steering committee, and being on a first-name basis with the ILL and circ staff), but i also just found it to be a pleasant, appealing, comfortable place to work. my carrel, #423, which overlooked longfellow pond and lake waban, while cold, was home to me my senior year. and the books were organized in a sensible fashion (i.e., in alphabetical order) across the four floors that held them.

penn's library, by contrast (and with the exception of rare books and manuscripts, which has stellar collections and a lovely staff), is a piece of shit. and i am being kind. the books are all over the place -- i'm talking A, B and Z on the 4th floor, P and my carrel on the third, and several other alphabets on the 5th, as well as stacks and stacks of dewey books on 3 and 4 -- with lippincott taking over sections of shelves in the main building, not enough bathrooms, missing books on cramped shelves, an electronic catalogue that times out every 10 minutes, no self-checkout machines, and the most angry/bitter/unhelpful circulation staff of any institution i've ever seen. this is not even to mention the horse and pony show that is opening your bag when you leave so that the security guards who aren't paying attention can nod perfunctorily at you to tell you you are good to go. even things that seem like pros are not (for instance, being able to check books to your carrel -- this only means that they show up on catalogue searches so that people can go to your carrel and look at them, which in turn means that they have occasion to grow legs and walk away. also, didn't anyone tell these people that sticking ugly blue carrel tags in the books to designate them "carrel books" ruins the pages and leaves residue?). finally, what about the ridiculously lax policy on bringing food in?!!? the undergrads eat mcdonalds and all manner of other food while studying -- messy, aromatic or whatever. god alone knows what gets into the books and the stacks. i know i am more curmudgeonly than most on the matter of respect for books, but this is seriously uncool.

i remember the research/reference librarian liaison person who did our (3-hour-long!) library introduction my first semester of grad school saying that the library where a person does her graduate work is the library that will be closest to her heart for the rest of her life. no way, buddy bob, no freaking way.

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Tuesday, September 23, 2008

Life Can't Be That Bad

the last few weeks, i've been having bad hair day after bad hair day.

a) my new shampoo + conditioner combo, while it smells great, has undetermined effects on the sheen and bounce of my hair -- i'm testing it one more time, and if i see negative after-effects i'm taking it back to CVS for a refund.
b) the stress of the 50 book exam has been making my hair fall out in large quantities. (yes, even now. what, you thought everything would go back to normal as soon as i walked out of the slaughterhouse?) as someone who has always had thick, thick hair, i'm disturbed.
c) i haven't been swimming as much, but the chlorine is doing terrible things to my hair, i just know it. i've started wetting my hair pre-pool, and have even gone back to using dabur hair oil (i smell just like i did in school -- brahmiaamlakeshtel types!) but i don't know how much of an effect that's having yet.

but today, as i was standing on the steps outside the gym waiting for the shuttle so that i could get home, a random, mildly cute indian guy changed his trajectory down the stairs just so that he could stop by me, look me right in the eye, and say, "you have lovely hair."

... and voilà, life is good again!

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Sunday, August 03, 2008

Coincidences?

just yesterday i was listening to a dutch woman tell me how she and her three closest friends in philadelphia -- all dutch, too! -- all had birthdays in the latter half of march.

then i saw this on my facebook sidebar, under upcoming birthdays:
Amanda H***
Anna K*****
Alisha P****
Aude W******
Arshiya B***
Ameya N***

i like finding patterns in the most uncommon of places. i think that's why i like being a bibliographer so much -- there's patterns everywhere, and almost nothing is a coincidence (as long as you can find physical evidence for it, like binding threads or ink squash). it makes my librarian side inordinately happy.

happy birthday to all 6 august 4th a's!

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Friday, June 20, 2008

Happy Little Things

i'm sitting in the grad lab, on a lovely friday evening in the summer, bundled up because it's cold, typing up notes on a set of 10 middle english lyrics -- part of the 50 book thing (see here <http://simran.nomadlife.org/2008/04/summer-of-books.aspx> for the latest official iteration of the list).

now, i like the poems, because they're interesting, and funny, and unfamiliar to me, generically (i've had more exposure to alliterative long-line poetry and iambic pentameter than to the short secular/religious lyric) -- so that's not the problem.

the thing is, one google docs file stands between me and going home for the day. my consolation is that, after i finish this writeup, i'll be just over 1/3 done with the reading for the exam. but still... to be outside, eating ice cream and being worry-free right now.... *sigh*

but my companion, for now, must be a box of cvs salted mixed nuts. peanuts/almonds/cashews. they are yum, somewhat healthy, and motivational. sadly, i think i like the almonds best. this is like what that psychology grad student dude i met once told me about the sort of unthinking decision we make based on a misleading perception that we'll be happier for it -- such as buying mixed yogurt, and feeling like that's better value for money, and that variety is the spice of life, when in fact we're more likely to just eat the peach or strawberry yogurt and glare balefully at the least favourite flavour as it sits in the fridge with no takers. exactly that, in this situation: i suspect there will be a ton of peanuts sitting in the tub at the end of this eating episode... and perhaps a lyric or two that will fall to the bottom of the list and be glared at, as well.

now, back to the notes.

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Thursday, May 22, 2008

*$s

dear diary,

today i drank my very first hot caffeinated beverage of the academic year: a tall caramel macchiato.

i just wanted to say how ridiculous i think that is.

because today is may 23.

and school began on september 5 of last year.

this means i drank no coffee all year. what kind of english grad student am i!?

(admittedly, maybe it's not quite that ridiculous, because coffee costs $3 a cup at starbucks, so it's just as well. and coffee tends to make me jumpy and give me stomach cramps, so it's really just as well. and also, *cough*, i've been drinking red bull, instead...)

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Monday, May 12, 2008

The Unthinkable

i'm no longer the kind of kid who's all anti-microsoft (being 25 means i don't have time for soapbox tirades -- and, cough, i now have a mac). but i was willing to give the free office substitute program a go, because it's, well, free.

but after neo-office shut down on me for the nth time, and i realized that my never-ending paper of doom (currently at 33 pages, without the 5 pages of images i need to stick in there) was going to be even longer and the formatting get all messed up when emily opened it with ms office, i decided it was time to succumb.

so: office 2008.

i never realized just how comfortable i am with word (as opposed to neo-office "writer"), even though it's the 2008 edition and i've hardly ever used it before. i also hadn't realized how much prettier it is than the no-frills, weird-buttons neo app.

*sigh of relaxation*

yes, dear readers, before you freak out, yes. yes. i sold my soul to the devil, and i'm ok with that. at least my headers (first page different) and my footnotes (all 40 of them, in times new roman 10 with superscript numbering and one space instead of one tab space between number and note) don't need to be individually formatted anymore.

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Sunday, May 11, 2008

WTF

when did it get to be 11:23 on the night before my piers plowman paper is due?

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Thursday, April 10, 2008

I Hate Taxes

i'm good at addition and subtraction, but sadly, 'rithmetic isn't really all that useful (beyond figuring out potential permutations and combinations of the various deductions i could take) when it comes to getting through the tension of the season of april 15.

you see, being an international non-immigrant resident alien is complicated... not to mention that my tax status has changed in some way every year for the last 3 years, so i feel like a moving target!... and i never seem to be able to find my old returns when i need them... and this year i live in a different state from the one i've always lived in... and apparently philadelphia requires people to file city taxes (in addition to state and federal)... and i didn't file my own taxes last year, so i don't know what was going on in that mess of papers!... and i didn't even get a W-2 this year...

upon thinking about all this, actually, i've come to the conclusion that perhaps the most useful tax skill i could acquire would be the ability to get off my ass about these sorts of things before april 10.

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Wednesday, April 09, 2008

Summer Of Books

Fifty Book Exam List

I. Historical Period: Medieval
1. The Dream of the Rood (OE, MS 950-1000)
2. Geoffrey of Monmouth, History of the Kings of Britain (Latin, 1136)
3. Song of Roland (1140-1170?)
4. Chrétien de Troyes, Arthurian Romances (“The Knight of the Cart”) (late 12th century)
5. Marie de France, Lais (“Lanval”, “Bisclavret”) (late 12th century)
6. Winner and Waster (c. 1350)
7. Sir Gawain and the Green Knight (c. 1385)
8. St. Erkenwald (c. 1386)
9. Corpus Christi plays: York Creation and Fall of Lucifer, Chester Noah's Flood, Brome Abraham and Isaac, Wakefield Second Shepherd's Play, Wakefield Herod the Great, N-Town Woman Taken in Adultery, York Crucifixion, and Wakefield Last Judgment (c. 1375-1570s)
10. Geoffrey Chaucer, selections from Canterbury Tales (General Prologue, Knight, Miller, Reeve, Cook, Wife of Bath, Friar, Summoner, Clerk) (1390s)
11. Julian of Norwich, The Short Text of Sixteen Revelations of Divine Love (c. 1393)
12. Selected Middle English lyrics: Luria and Hoffman ed. nos. 6 (“Foweles in the frith”), 77 (“I have a gentil cok”), 81 (“We ben chapmen light of fote”), 90 (“May no man slepe in youre halle”), 138 (“Maiden in the mor lay”), 178 (Geoffrey Chaucer, “Lak of Stedfastnesse”), 181 (“I sing of a maiden”), 182 (“Salve Regina”), 190 (“Now goth sonne under wod”), and 197 (“A God and yet a man?”)
13. The Alliterative Morte Arthure (c. 1400)
14. Margery Kempe, The Book of Margery Kempe (c. 1436)
15. ** Mary Carruthers, The Book of Memory (criticism)
16. ** Tim William Machan, Textual Criticism and Middle English Texts (criticism)

II. Genre: Travels and Encounters
17. Heliodorus, Æthiopica (3rd century)
18. The Travels of Sir John Mandeville (c. 1375)
19. Walter Raleigh, “Discovery of Guiana” (1596)
20. William Shakespeare, The Tempest (c. 1610)
21. Sir Thomas More, Utopia (1615)
22. Christopher Marlowe, Tamburlaine (1633)
23. Aphra Behn, Oroonoko or The Royal Slave (1688)
24. Jonathan Swift, Gulliver's Travels (1726)
25. Lewis Carroll, Alice's Adventures in Wonderland (1865)
26. H.G. Wells, The First Men in the Moon (1901)
27. Joseph Conrad, Heart of Darkness (1902)
28. Ama Ata Aidoo, Our Sister Killjoy (1977)
29. Edward Said, Orientalism (1979)
30. Amitav Ghosh, Shadow Lines (1988)
31. Martin Scorsese, Gangs of New York (2003)
32. ** Peter Hulme, Colonial Encounters (criticism)

III. Theme/Theory: Form and the Material Text
33. William Langland, Piers Plowman A-Text Visio (1360s) (authorial revision)
34. William Langland, Piers Plowman B-Text Visio (Prologue-Passus 7) (1380s)
35. William Langland, Piers Plowman C-Text Visio (Prologue-Passus 9) (1380s)
36. William Shakespeare, Hamlet (Q1) (1603) (printers/publishers/authors + editions)
37. William Shakespeare, Hamlet (Q2) (1604)
38. William Shakespeare, Hamlet (F) (1623)
39. Christopher Marlowe, Dr. Faustus A-Text (1604)
40. Christopher Marlowe, Dr. Faustus B-Text (1616)
41. Charles Dickens, A Tale of Two Cities (1852) (serialization)
42. Walt Whitman, Leaves of Grass, selected poems (1855 and 1891 editions): “A Boston Ballad” (1854), “Song of Myself” (1855), “The Sleepers” (1855), “Song of the Answerer” (1855), “Song of Myself” (1891), “Crossing Brooklyn Ferry” (1891), “A Boston Ballad” (1891), “When Lilacs Last in the Dooryard Bloom'd” (1891) as well as frontispiece portraits from both editions (authorial revision, self-publication, author portraits)
43. William Blake, Songs of Innocence and Experience (selections) (1789; 1794) (illustrations)
44. Emily Dickinson, selected published poems: “Safe in their Alabaster Chambers —”/”The Sleeping”; “Blazing in the Gold and quenching in Purple”/”Sunset”; “I taste a liquor never brewed —”; “Publication—is the Auction”; “This is my letter to the World”; “This was a Poet—it is That”; “‘Hope’ is a thing with feathers—”; “Because I could not stop for Death” (creation of the authorial corpus; order of component texts)
45. T. S. Eliot, The Waste Land: A Facsimile and Transcript of the Original Drafts including the Annotations of Ezra Pound (1971) (editorial process)
46. Alan Moore, V for Vendetta (1995) (graphic novel)
47. James McTeigue, V for Vendetta (2006) (translation into another medium)
48. ** Robert Darnton, “The Printed Word” (Section 3 of Kiss of Lamourette): “What is the History of Books?”, “The Forgotten Middlemen of Literature”, “First Steps Towards A History of Reading” (criticism)
49. ** G. Thomas Tanselle, A Rationale of Textual Criticism (criticism)
50. ** Jerome McGann, Part I of The Textual Condition (criticism)

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Sunday, March 16, 2008

Mind-Twist

"The presence of paradox generally exhibits the force of an underlying desire, and for editors and scholars of Renaissance drama the desire is to reduce the multiple and dispersed intentions that shaped play-texts in the playhouse and the printing house into idealized, single-author works."

-- douglas a. brooks, from playhouse to printing house, p. 153.

what...?

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Sunday, February 03, 2008

Request For Communal Expertise

if anyone's out there reading, i'd be grateful for:

(a) tips on what to do on a week-long trip to rome
(b) that-hallmark-holiday-in-february gift ideas for a gregarious, sporty, itinerant, preppy boy, from a girl who thinks the usual array of store-bought stuff (pens, ties, even hiking gear) for guys is totally boring. (if the boy in question is reading, and feels so inclined, he can make suggestions, too!)
(c) suggestions on how to file away stacks and stacks of printed-out articles/readings in an aesthetic yet useful fashion. i'd like to avoid filing cabinets, if at all possible, which is to say that hanging folders on a frame, magazine boxes, and the like would be much more up my alley.

email [simphonatic at gmail dot com] or leave comments.

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Saturday, December 22, 2007

At This Rate

so far this finals period i have written:

7 pages for heather
17 pages for peter and zack
25 pages for david

i'm currently at 32 pages for ania, aiming for about 40ish.

plus umpteen emails and facebook wall posts, some even with creative bent (one specific person has taken responsibility for precisely 97.3% of my prolific email production -- but the facebook monster is a separate and formidable sinkhole for words words words).

all in less than 3 weeks.

at this rate, i could be done with a dissertation in 6 months. it'd be mad painful (think of the red bull cans i'd accumulate... and the jitters that would keep me bouncing at 4 am... and the amount of wheat thins i'd have to consume...), and it might not even be that good, and i'd keel over and die right after...

but hot damn, i'd be a doctor of awesome!

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Sunday, December 16, 2007

Two Oversized Ironies Of Finals Week

i'm writing papers on madness and hell.

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Wednesday, December 12, 2007

Negatory

for as long as i can remember i've hated the words "weak", "struggle", "try", "incapable" -- for their overall negative valences, really, but especially when used in relation to myself.

here's another "no" word that actually means something good: never. like, "never never never never never" (cf. king lear, who's currently chewing my brains). but also like, "never again [will i get myself into such a ridiculous pickle over final papers]."

n-e-v-e-r.

someone remind me of this week when it's late april 2008 and i'm frolicking like a fairy instead of writing like a fiend?

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Thursday, November 29, 2007

Nuclear Meltdown Alert

don't talk to me unless i talk to you.

seriously. just don't.

unless you are prepared for a barrage of some of the most disturbing and life-changing (yet profoundly eloquent, because i'm in graduate school after all) musings i've ever had.


(blog comments are still welcome.)

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Thursday, October 25, 2007

From Indiana

whoever you are, thanks for this:

The movies lie in many ways, but in this one oh so cruelly. The girl doesn’t wait forever. Love alone is not enough. The ending is not always happy.

sounds like ideology critique to me -- the cynicism as concerns the simultaneous ubiquity and transparency of the dominant discourse, the accusation of the perpetuation of a system of similar cultural artifacts, the angry pessimism of horkheimer at work, that whole spiel -- and oh, of course it could be from my own head (if i had the time to think)...

except it's really a maudlin guest rumination from sex and the ivy: <http://sexandtheivy.com/2007/10/24/an-evolution-of-waiting-guest-post-by-indiana>.

if you haven't read elle yet, start now. she's quite a celebrity in the blogosphere, and in many ways she speaks my life.

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Thursday, September 13, 2007

Full Text Searchability

anyone who thinks organizing information by keyword [ie, searchability] is counterintuitive has obviously never been in my brain.

because you only really know how important full-text search is when you've had to dig (swim?) through hundreds of pages of reading in the last week, all seemingly having lots to do with each other (amazing intertextuality -- hello, this is graduate school!), and you're trying to remember in what article it might have been that you might have seen (or were you dreaming?) a certain sentence -- or was it a phrase? or a clause? what's the difference, anyway? -- which might have been on the left hand side of the page, perhaps in the middle, and which might have been about the simple-mindedness of the peasantry.

god damn the complexity and frustration of the partially-impaired, very overwhelmed visual memory.

this is why, when google finally announced and implemented a search box for google reader <http://googleblog.blogspot.com/2007/09/find-needle-in-feedstack-with-google.html>, i was thrilled. anything -- anything! -- to make me feel less muddled right about now, seriously.

***

update, 4:07 pm:

omg it's absolutely amazing. you can search all posts, or search certain folders, or search just certain blogs. thank you, gods!

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Saturday, September 01, 2007

Perfect Timing

phd comics (<http://www.phdcomics.com>) comes through with a new character -- gerard, a dweeby-chic (i'm talking grey turtleneck and librarian glasses) medieval scandinavian cultural philosophy grad student -- just in time for the beginning of my semi-decade of doctoral workaholism:

<http://www.phdcomics.com/comics.php?f=907>

yessssss!

thank you, jorge cham!

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Friday, August 03, 2007

PersonalDNA

first there was visual dna (see mine here <http://simran.nomadlife.org/2007/03/visual-dna.aspx>).

now there's personaldna:



About You: You are a Visionary
  • Your imagination, self-assuredness, and knowledge of the world combine to make you a VISIONARY.
  • You have clear notions of how things could be, and the confidence to try to make them that way.
  • You enjoy having a routine, and prefer comfort and familiarity to risk and adventure.
  • Not needing others' approval to forge ahead, you are confident in your designs for the future.
  • Your imagination allows you to envision the world as a better place.
  • You're better at thinking of the big picture than you are with details, and you can see wonder in abstract things.
  • Style and appearances are important to you, and you have a good eye for beauty.
  • You are somewhat rigid in your beliefs, which comes from both confidence and an aversion to change.
  • You are good at creating works of art in forms with which you're familiar.
  • Your independent streak allows you to make decisions efficiently and to trust your instincts
  • You much prefer to have time to plan for things, feeling better with a schedule than with keeping plans up in the air until the last minute. Your decisions are well thought out, and you're not the least bit impulsive.
  • Generally, you believe that you control your life, and that external forces only play a limited role in determining what happens to you.
If you want to be different:
  • Appreciate the earthly, functional elements of things.
  • Your clarity of vision sometimes prevents you from being open to new ideas. Try expanding your horizon of experiences, and experimenting with novel ways of doing things.
How You Relate To Others: You are Free-Wheeling
  • Your charismatic nature, liveliness, and independence make you FREE-WHEELING.
  • You don't mind being in the spotlight, preferring social gatherings to quiet nights at home.
  • You take a practical approach to people, not getting too involved in their feelings—or their business.
  • At the same time, your acceptance of others leads you to be understanding of their life circumstances, even if you don't quite understand their emotional reactions to some things.
  • Although you have a wide circle of friends, you're very discerning as to whom you can trust.
  • You're not rigid in your beliefs about the world, and you don't want to impose your perspective on others, but at the same time, you know that plenty of people don't always act responsibly.
  • Engaging with others is a large part of how you live in the world, and most importantly, it plays a role in how you see yourself—you tend to learn a lot about yourself in situations where you are with other people.
  • You have an understanding of the complexities of situations, and you don't judge others too hastily.
If you want to be different:
  • Your open-mindedness about the world gives you a great perspective on things, but your lack of trust in others limits how close you can get with them. Try opening up to people a bit more without losing your healthy skepticism.
  • While being the life of the party will occasionally come naturally to you, be sure to reserve time for yourself—see what you can learn by spending some time observing the world rather than just by diving in.

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Tuesday, June 12, 2007

Shoulda Played By The Rules

one of the rules of the fast life, the experts tell me, is to try everything once.

well, i now know that it should apply to the nerdy life too.

because, you see, i was given the opportunity earlier today to cast a sort -- a little gothic letter "a" with its own little type-high body (exactly 0.918", if you please) and its own little "jet" (or "tang") and its own little idiosyncrasies -- using a 600° F alloy of molten lead, tin and antimony, and a hand mould made by stan nelson. (for more information on hand typecasting, see the wikipedia article here -- <http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Type_casting_(typography)> -- or ask james mosley.)

and i passed it up.

next time someone offers me such a nerdy opportunity, you can bet your well-worn copy of harry carter (or daniel berkeley updike, if you're old-school) i'll be first in line.

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Sunday, May 27, 2007

If The Academy Is A Small World...

(which it is...)

then there are only so many people this could be:

<http://www.flickr.com/photos/girlfish1303/529425163>

(originally at <http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_a7jkcMVp5Vg/RlicAoSfthI/AAAAAAAAA3k/q07XMBpG7dc/s1600-h/makeup.jpg>, from the delightful and disturbing cache of <http://www.postsecret.com>)

to him or her, i say: you were probably following a dream when you applied to b, c, c, d, h, p, p or y. you should totally follow this one, too.

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Friday, May 04, 2007

My Love Affair With The Internets

(aka, "So There")

people often ask me why i spend so much time online every day.

without even getting into
(a) official stuff like grad school communication, or
(b) unofficial stuff like how the facebook (hey, i was using it back in 2004, so i'm allowed to use the "the". shut up!) is a versatile connector, excellent timepass, and a research tool for my quarterly college magazine class notes, or
(c) just plain personal stuff like how craigslist made 2006 just about the best year ever,

i'd say the various miracles of google alone keep me coming back for more, several times a day.

... thinking out writ, and meeting new people, via blogger.
... stalking my stalkers using analytics.
... using a combination of maps and craigslist/the university housing website to look for apartments and compare the distances between them and my department.
... making sure i don't miss appointments using my beautiful.anal-retentive colour-coded calendar.
... following blogs with reader (which reinvented itself a few months ago and is today far more usable than bloglines, imho, although where oh where is the google usp of full searchability?!)
... posting photos for specific people's viewing pleasure on picasa (1GB for photos alone? rock on!)
... staying in touch with 2005 leadership using groups.
... gchat/gtalk. gotta love the little green bubbles!
... gmail. now that's an "enough said", right there.

i don't even use docs and spreadsheets or notebook to their full capacity. perhaps i should start!

(no, they aren't paying me to say this.)

but now, ta da, there is the mother of them all: web history <http://www.google.com/history>. it's quite a concept, the sort of thing you wish you could use retrospectively on your entire life so you could always recall. i haven't used it much yet, but i suspect i will start in the very near future.

because today, there was the following.

see, i subscribe to <www.dailycandy.com>, to which i was introduced by darling evelyn a year or so ago. i'd been off the 'candy for a few months after moving back to india, but after i confirmed that US grad-school-ness would be happening in the near future, i got back on asap.

now, a few days ago, i remembered that i had read an article in the new york times, at some point in the past year or so, which talked about a candy-like service or website, or something. and i wanted to re-read the article online.

(note to self: there's also another article i read around the same time about youngish new yorkers living in large clusters in manhattan... and i kept conflating it in my head with this other candy-esque-service article. poo. must look it up soon!

update: friday, may 4, 2007, 2:42 am/2:54 am:

found it. i am just that good. check it out, here: <http://www.nytimes.com/2005/07/10/realestate/10habi.html> or in my next post at <http://simran.nomadlife.org/2007/05/blasted-housing-hunt.aspx>)

*cough*. so anyway, i kept thinking about the first article and this service at random times: in cabs on the way home, or while in french class, but never actually remembered to come home and look anything up. and it sat and sat on my head until finally, today, i thought, ok, let's google it.

but what to google? here's the beauty of the internets:

i knew my first search term would be "new york times". using the actual NYT site would prove fruitless, i knew, because they hide a significant part of their content, after a week or so of free reading, behind a paid archive subscription. of course, bloggers like myself will often copy+paste entire articles for the reading pleasure of the general public, so all it takes is a quick search to turn up the full text elsewhere. (also: google is more fun to use!)

so that first step was now taken care of. my thought process immediately after was to stick in the words "new york" as well, but googling "new york times" "new york" is like googling "sex" "women" -- too broad, in more ways than one :P so no.

but now what to do if all i could remember about the rest of the article was that it had to do with 2 new yorkers who started a tap-into-the-pulse-of-the-youth type service and made it big? i racked my brains harder. oh, i remembered, there was talk of a san francisco edition. so in went "san francisco".

i thought about putting in the word "pulse", but i wasn't sure if that was the name of the service or not, so i left it out.

then i recalled, randomly, that the article mentioned a gong being struck after an edition had been completed (must have been some sort of new age management reward technique... who knows?, it's new york...), so i put in "gong" as well.

too many articles about the falun gong. no thoughts on what else might have been in the article (drat that other interfering one about the real estate crunch!) desire for instant search gratification. so, finally, legerdemain: this service was a written, quite possibly emailed thing, so it must have an "editor".

voilà: <http://www.nytimes.com/2006/09/10/magazine/10flavorpill.html>

flavorpill -- that's it!

(thank you, google, i think silently for the nth time this millennium.)

September 10, 2006

Virtually Cool

By CHIP BROWN

If you’re not reading this on a screen, if you don’t have a blog, if your phone is still leashed to a wall, if time has cruelly removed you from the 25-to-34-year-old age bracket beloved by advertisers, you probably missed the book party at the TriBeCa Cinemas in July. The author of the hour was Chris Anderson, who after the drinks entertained the crowd with a simulcast PowerPoint lecture on the topic of his new best seller, “The Long Tail,” which describes how the chokehold of mass culture is being loosened by the new Internet-enabled economics of niche culture and niche commerce.

The party was sponsored in part by a small SoHo-based new-media company called Flavorpill, which produces free e-mail magazines and weekly event guides for New York, Los Angeles, San Francisco, Chicago and London. (Soon to come are editions for Austin, Miami, Seattle and Boston.) Flavorpill’s number of subscribers has been doubling annually since the company started in New York six years ago, and now its family of 10 digital publications has 355,000 readers and projected revenues of $3.5 million this year. Such is Flavorpill’s trend-setting street cred that in some quarters its seal of approval is considered the equivalent of a papal blessing.

“We’ve been called the Condé Nast of e-mail,” says Sascha Lewis, a co-founder.

To whisk up the mood after Anderson’s economics seminar, Flavorpill brought in dance-punk disk jockeys, and from 10 p.m. to 2 a.m. there was live music from bands your mother has never heard of, unless her iPod is unaccountably stuffed with booty rap by Spank Rock. Flavorpill also put together a “Tap the Tail” promotional CD of cutting-edge tunes, which staff members were handing out at the door — a far cry from the early days when the company’s brand-extension missionaries used to chalk the logo on the sidewalks of Union Square.

More than 1,300 people showed up at TriBeCa Cinemas; because the event had been “Flavorpilled” — that is, listed in Flavorpill’s New York City e-mail issue No. 318 — a lot of them were what Lewis and his partner, Mark Mangan, call “urban influencers.”

Anderson is such a creature himself — a regular reader of Flavorpill San Francisco, the city where he lives and works as the editor in chief of Wired magazine.

“It resonates with me,” he said when I asked why he likes it. “Why does anybody read anything?”

On one hand it makes perfect sense that Flavorpill would want to fete a book focused on a component of the company’s success. The efficiency with which information can be assembled and distributed on the Internet is the foundation of every digital-content company. Flavorpill created an audience by deftly exploiting a new medium. “In many ways,” Mark Mangan says, “what we’re doing with the events we list is the same as what Time Out New York, The New Yorker, The New York Times, The Village Voice and other publications are doing. But if you can’t click to a map of where the event is, if you can’t forward it to your friends, if you can’t send it to your cellphone, is it really that useful?”

On the other hand, part of Anderson’s Long Tail thesis is that the Internet is removing bottlenecks between supply and demand and establishing a market where “everything becomes available to everyone.” Unlike with archetypal Long Tail businesses like iTunes or eBay, the success of Flavorpill’s weekly e-mails has less to do with new digital efficiencies than with the classic distinctions of sensibility. Despite the founders’ professed desire not to cater just to a “clique of hipsters,” Flavorpill’s subscriber traffic, ad trade and growing cultural influence depend on the “cultural filtering” of staff members who would not have to change much if they wanted to attend Flavorpill’s ultracool Halloween party dressed as a clique of hipsters. The success of Flavorpill in defining what’s cool raises the question: How cool can anything really be if everyone knows about it?

It’s hard to think of things that are less dynamic than the production of a digital city-events guide, which is why Mark Mangan came to work one day with a hand-held Chinese gong. The editorial process at Flavorpill starts quietly each Wednesday morning, and stays quiet as the week unfolds, until Monday evening, when a series of ear-shattering gong strikes ceremoniously marks the moment each city’s week of “filtered cultural stimuli” is released to the tech leprechauns who then push the stuff onto the Net for subscribers to open on Tuesday afternoon.

The managing editors of each city edition live in the cities they cover, but Mangan and Lewis, the sales staff, the techies and the production editors who format and copy-edit the cultural stimuli are all based in New York. Headquarters is a 2,500-square-foot loft on Broadway, next door to the New York institute of Alfred Adler, the famous Freudian apostate whose cultural profile is sorely lagging Spank Rock’s, to judge from the 20-somethings at Flavorpill who had never heard of him. The office has the shoestring-chic of a college newspaper. There’s always music going — evidently nothing facilitates cultural filtration like minimalist German techno. Four clocks mind the time in Flavorpill cities. There is a bicycle by the fire exit, a conference room designed around a garage door and dozens of desks glowing with the flat-screen fire of Macs and PC’s. As for the Aeron chairs that were once de rigueur at digital media companies before the Internet bubble burst in 2000, there are just two, reserved for the head guys.

The week after the Long Tail party I followed the preparations for Flavorpill N.Y.C. No. 319. It was being edited, or “curated,” as they like to say, by the New York managing editor, Jake Lancaster, a tall 30-year-old Boston University graduate who got his start at Flavorpill a few years ago when, for joy not money, he reviewed the Brooklyn hip-hop artist Beans. Eventually he landed a gig as one of Flavorpill’s 12 full-time employees.

When he got to his desk that Wednesday, his e-mail in-box was swollen with potential listings, all of them tagged and routed by a proprietary content-management system built by Flavorpill and known, somewhat ominously, as the Tool. About half of the final cut of 25 items for the coming week would be gleaned from suggestions submitted by regular Flavorpill contributors, nearly all of whom were also writing for the joy of it, or — if they were young and aspiring journalists — for clips and contacts.

One possible No. 319 item caught Lancaster’s eye right away: an anniversary performance of “Asssscat” by the improv comedy group the Upright Citizens Brigade. It was sent in by longtime Flavorpill contributor Mindy Bond, who has a double life not atypical of Flavorpill contributors. At night she trolls obscure cultural tributaries; during the day she works in the main channel of the mainstream, in the speech-writing department of Time Warner. (“I look for events that are quirky or weird,” she told me later. “Or things that are going to catch on but haven’t quite. I steer away from things that are listed in The New Yorker. If something has the Flavorpill stamp, you know it is cool or interesting or funny or ahead of the curve and will attract people that have the same interests you do.”) Good comedy listings were hard to come by, and Lancaster quickly made Asssscat a finalist; it was knocked out at the last minute for technical reasons (Flavorpill e-mails don’t list shows that sell out before publication).

Done with the submissions in the Tool, Lancaster turned to sift through a long queue of e-mailed press releases and his massive list of venue Web sites. “We try to keep the issue a light read,” he said. “No one wants a novel in their e-mail.”

“What would never make the final cut?”

“Anything really really expensive,” Lancaster said.

“Anything at Madison Square Garden,” said Leah Taylor, the 22-year-old New York production editor who was sitting at the next computer, reading a British music Web site called This Is Fake DIY.

“Anything exceedingly banal,” Lancaster added. “There’s no point to listing a classic rock band that’s been around for 40 years, like the Allman Brothers. But an old lounge act we might list for the kitsch factor. Occasionally some venues will really surprise you. Like B.B. King’s. They’ll have a lot of incredibly cheesy stuff — Beatles brunches and terrible cover bands — and then they’ll have some crazy death-metal band. The tough thing is keeping track of nontraditional venues.”

In the course of the week I made a point of asking anyone I could what characterized the sensibility behind each week’s batch of filtered cultural stimuli. It proved a surprisingly hard needle to thread: a set of ineffable intuitions and aesthetic standards that seemed as nebulous as they were exacting. Possibly Flavorpill’s influence has less to do with what is on its menu than with the fact that the menu isn’t overstuffed with entrees. Flavorpill doesn’t take the Greek coffee shop approach and paralyze readers with a surfeit of options.

“I would say the primary focus is on emerging culture of all kinds,” said Jocelyn Glei, the 29-year-old group managing editor who oversees all five city guides, as well as the specialized magazines. “There aren’t really any parameters, the only overriding factor is that we really believe in the artist or the production — we really think something is great.” As an example of how Flavorpill draws from mainstream sources as well as cultural backwaters, Glei cited New York Flavorpill issues that listed both the conventional production of “The Importance of Being Earnest” at the Brooklyn Academy of Music and a production at the Brick Theater in Williamsburg of “The Kung Fu Importance of Being Earnest,” which hilariously stitched martial arts scenes into Wilde’s classic drawing-room comedy.

“I would say the aesthetic we uphold is always about our own canon,” said Lisa Rosman, a longtime contributor. “Either very new cultural trends or older ones that are vital to the ones that prevail at the moment. An example would be that we always highlight Gil Scott-Heron, even though he was a 60’s-70’s dude, since he pretty much helped launch hip-hop. Our aesthetic is mainstream indie, though we don’t admit it. It’s under the wire, but just. And the minute we report on it, its under-the-wire status is absolutely blown.”

As Flavorpill’s film editor, Rosman contributes to all the city publications, and she has developed a feel for the subtle regional differences. “Chicago has its own kind of hard-core R.&B.-inspired scene and an art scene inspired by both the Art Institute of Chicago and cheaper rents. L.A. has a refracted neon palm tree glam, which is a reaction to all that Hollywood veneer that wends its way into visual art especially, but also into music and all the retro-movie houses. London, well those kids have a jaunty charm I’ve yet to pin down.”

Every list item seems to entail a complex aesthetic calibration and raises the possibility that staff members who imagine themselves consummate indie hipsters may actually have an uncomfortable amount in common with mainstream dorks. Rosman told me that a few editors had a big debate about whether to list a Justin Timberlake concert. “The feeling was we couldn’t, because Justin Timberlake is not cool,” she said. “But everyone at Flavorpill secretly loves Justin Timberlake.”

Flavorpill’s founders, Mark Mangan, 35, and Sascha Lewis, 36, are both veterans of the first Internet boom. Mangan grew up in a Main Line Philadelphia suburb, the second of four kids. Having read “The Aeneid” in Latin at the Episcopal Academy, he thought he would be a scholar or a writer. But he showed an early knack for business, selling taffy out of his locker to his fellow fourth graders and turning the family basement into a profitable silk-screen T-shirt factory during high school.

“My mom is an accountant; she explained C.O.G.S. to me — cost of goods sold,” Mangan recalled one day over lunch at Barmarché in NoLIta. He was casually dressed, dark-haired, with friendly brown eyes and a delicate starfish of a scar on his forehead, a result of a car crash in the family Volvo when he was 5.

At the University of Vermont, Mangan studied English and French; he spent a year in Paris reading philosophy and literature at the Sorbonne and bartending in the Paris branch of Cactus Charly.

Back home after graduation, he took the LSAT but decided not to follow his father and his older brother, Mike, into a law career. A friend had given him a 1993 report on the growth and future of the Internet. He was inspired to dig out his dad’s I.B.M. desktop computer and start poking around online.

In 1995 he landed a job as a Web consultant, and a year later, with Jonathan Wallace, he wrote a well-received book, “Sex, Laws and Cyberspace.” In 1998, as the frenzy of the Internet land rush was cresting, he set out to stake a claim with his own lifestyle e-commerce business. He was looking for capital when he bumped into Lewis, whom he had known through a mutual friend since college.

Lewis, unlike Mangan, had no itch to homestead in cyberspace. He grew up on Manhattan’s Upper East Side, with an older sister. His mother worked as a child therapist; his father founded the New York-based Touchstone Center for Children. Lewis was 11 when they divorced. He played baseball and basketball at the Walden School in New York. During the winter of his senior year, he worked as the ball boy for the New York Knicks. He occasionally got to shoot around on the floor of Madison Square Garden with visiting gym rats like Larry Bird and Isiah Thomas.

Today, with his hair gone, his athletic competitiveness tempered by age, a regular yoga practice and possibly the pacifying effects of a vegetarian diet, he still seems driven — ready to dive for a loose ball. Two fixtures of his wardrobe are his white Royal Elastics sneakers and a colored terry cloth wristband.

After graduating from Union College in 1992, Lewis worked at a club called Mr. Fuji’s. “I loved night life,” he says. “I was always the guy in the group who takes charge of where we should go.”

A year later, he got into real estate and in 1995 started his own company, but the unutterable bliss of finding apartments for supermodels like Linda Evangelista wasn’t what he had in mind when he recalled his boyhood desire to change the world. Neither was e-commerce. He didn’t own a computer; he knew virtually nothing about the Internet. But anything was better than haggling with landlords, and when he heard Mark Mangan’s pitch, he agreed to put up $10,000 and join the team.

Netsetgoods.com opened in December 1998. The e-shelves were stocked with pashminas from India, watches from Japan, one-strap messenger bags from France. Within 18 months the company had customers from all 50 states and 15 countries and notices from all the major style magazines. Revenues peaked at $300,000 a year.

Then, in March 2000, the Internet bubble burst.

“We just never got the bird off the ground,” says Mark’s brother, Mike Mangan, who was the company’s lawyer.

In the final months before Netset folded in October 2000, the would-be e-commerce moguls sent out e-mail messages to New York Netset customers and people on party lists from the first dot-com boom, when there was an event nearly every night for digital workers eager to relax after a hard day burning venture capital.

The first e-mail message was dispatched on July 11, 2000. With four plain-text items separated by asterisks, the visual presentation was on a par with the wire-service telexes that rattled out the news of Nixon’s resignation in 1974. But the reception was good. So they did one the next week, and another the week after that. When they stopped moving merchandise, Mangan and Lewis thought they might make a go moving cultural advisories instead.

“We had no capital,” Mangan recalls. “No business plan, no model. But we had a growing publication that people were digging, so we said to each other, ‘Let’s just push forward, see how far we can take this.”’

Needing a name, they came up with Flavorpill after three days of brainstorming, convinced that the image of a mouthwatering capsule of culture outweighed the unwanted drug connotations. They registered the domain name that September.

“I wrote the first six months of Flavorpill New York in my kitchen and then e-mailed it to Mark,” Lewis told me. “For three and a half years I don’t think I went to bed once before 2 a.m. on Monday night. Our parents were like: ‘What are you guys doing? You’re college graduates and you’re sending out e-mails?’ My girlfriend at the time would ask for rent, and I would say, ‘Sweetie, it’s just around the corner.”’

Lewis put the $200 monthly Web hosting bill on his Visa card, and took work D.J.-ing at clubs. Mangan scraped by doing Web consulting. Will Keh, a friend they had in common, lavished them with leftovers from his catering company.

In April 2001 they sent out the first issue of Flavorpill that contained graphics. Cover art — original paintings and graphics offered by artists eager to publicize their work — would eventually become a Flavorpill trademark, as would the clean color-shot layout. And then in January 2002 they were able to replace the line of asterisks that delineated the days of the week in their very first e-mail with banner ads from an advertiser. Bloomberg, the news and financial information company founded by the new mayor of New York, bought five weeks of ads for $4,000 per week. Over the next three years Flavorpill would maintain the practice of selling each issue exclusively to one advertiser — companies like Nokia, BMW, Anheuser-Busch — but the rates would rise to $18,000 per issue, about 7 to 10 times the cost of an ad on a mainstream portal like Yahoo. Signs that they had some traction with their audience were springing up everywhere.

“We had club owners starting to call us up and ask, ‘Can you not list us?”’ Mangan told me.

A striking example of Flavorpill’s influence was the company’s collaboration with the Guggenheim Museum. Last year the museum began throwing a D.J. party in the Guggenheim rotunda on the first Friday of the month. The idea was to get a younger crowd of potential new members into the museum after hours. An e-mail press release from the Guggenheim arrived at Flavorpill.

“I had never heard any of their D.J.’s,” Lewis says. “I offered to help. I thought what we would get out of it would be media content, branding and a level of respect with the artistic community.”

“They brought in Diplo,” recalls Julia Brown, the museum’s manager of membership. “We had no idea this guy was the biggest thing since sliced bread.” The museum had been averaging 1,500 people; Diplo turned out nearly twice that number.

In retrospect, that primitive e-mail message Lewis and Mangan first sent out in July 2000 was an uncanny template of the future. It lacked the elegant Flavorpill graphics and the embedded hypertext links that now make each e-mail magazine a springboard to the fathomless esoterica of the Web. But the essential form was there from the start: the brief, superpositive event descriptions with the accent on why readers had to go; the ticket giveaways for added inspiration; the when-and-where info; the scope of venues that included New York’s outer boroughs; the viral marketing and community building embedded in the opportunity to “add a friend” to the e-mail list. Most important, Lewis and Mangan’s initial effort contained an appeal to readers to submit items of what they thought was must-see culture. Soliciting help was hardly an original idea — Tom Sawyer used the same tactic to get his fence painted — but it worked like a dream, providing fresh proof that if you get people excited about a job, they might well do it free.

When Monday arrived, one of the important cultural filterers was missing. “Leah’s home with pinkeye,” said Jake Lancaster. “But she’s working remotely.”

Lancaster was writing the introductory summary of the week. Each Flavorpill issue has a loose theme — Breezy Flavor, Profligate Flavor, Fecund Flavor — and with the Middle East exploding, the one he came up with for No. 319 was Discordant Flavor.

Leah Taylor being off-site meant that her boss, Jon Schultz, the 29-year-old group production editor, would have to pick up the slack. At the moment he was putting in some special coding so that spam filters would not reject a Flavorpill issue containing a word that would make your mother blush. Profanity is generally discouraged, but when writers are working free, you indulge them when you can.

When the San Francisco edition was done, Gerry Mak, the production editor, picked up the Chinese gong and whaled on it with a mallet.

“Woo-hoo!” said Jocelyn Glei, knocking fists with Mak. She turned back to proofreading, finding a space that needed to be closed up between a word and an ellipsis.

One by one, as London, L.A. and Chicago were wrapped, city production editors rose and trooped to the gong. Whether they whacked it once or twice, or apologetically, or vigorously, or with a demented zeal, the crescendo of sound cut through the minimalist German techno like Patton’s Third Army, lending texture and drama to the invisible rush of bytes.

Finally Schultz stood up. New York No. 319 was done. “Bring me the mallet!” he said.

Two days later I stopped by Mark Mangan’s apartment in the East Village, a 15-minute walk from his office. He brought some beer up to the roof, where there were a couple of chairs and a view.

Somehow time had carried him beyond the demographic center of his audience, more than half of whom were between 25 and 34. And he was looking in from the outside in other ways, being in the business of telling people where they could go but hardly ever getting out himself.

“It’s a little bit the story of the cobbler’s son — you know, he’s the one who doesn’t have any shoes,” he said.

Work was always on his mind. New cities beckoned, potential Flavorpills for Berlin, Tokyo, São Paulo, Toronto. It was possible that in a few years they could have three million readers. Every day he scanned a hundred Web sites, he read 200 to 300 e-mail messages. Six years on, the company was finally hitting its stride; they had turned down buyout offers.

“Now is when then fun begins,” he said.

More than once both Mangan and Lewis told me that their ambition was “to raise the water level of good culture,” as if buried in Flavorpill’s consumerist approach — in the trivial hedonism of any list of things to do — was a reformer’s agenda. Set aside that cultures are defined as much by what people detest as what they love. Week after week Flavorpill finds things to praise in the seemingly quixotic hope that the heavy lifting of cultural improvement might be accomplished through the rigor of a rosy focus.

The sun was long gone when we climbed down the stairs from the roof. It was a blistering night in the East Village. Mangan flipped open his cellphone. On the screen were the Flavorpill suggestions for that Thursday, fed to his phone by Dodgeball.com. He scrolled down the list. There was an Okkervil River concert at Castle Clinton. Missed that. At the Prospect Park Bandshell Yo La Tengo was performing their original score for eight documentary short films by the “surrealist aquanaut Jean Painlevé.” Missed that too. The Canada Gallery was featuring a group show led by Jim Drain, who was known for his “patchwork totem-sculptures that exude alien cool.” Too late again. The Great Villains in Cinema at Brooklyn Academy of Music? Not tonight. He shrugged. No matter. There was a feast out there, and something with his name on it was sure to turn up soon.

Chip Brown, a contributing writer, last wrote for the magazine about a former Taliban official studying at Yale.

yes, i am an information/internet geek. but "online" is such a great way to record everything that i just can't help myself. i am that demographic, the sort which leads someone like rashmi bansal to say, at <http://www.tehelka.com/story_main29.asp?filename=hub050507No_Country.asp>, that:

Every generation is different in a single, definitive way. My parents learnt English as a language. I think in it. We still see the Internet as a utility. The younger generation lives in it.

and yes, i realize that looking at the world through just one lens can distort your vision, but when was the last time you used a search engine that wasn't google? come on, you have to admit: they've got it down. they make your life easier.

more generally, when was the last time you wrote a letter? i'll give you that they're fun to receive and that good penmanship is on the way out, which sucks, but it's far quicker, cheaper and easier to do email.

when was the last time you looked in the world book instead of wikipedia? i'll give you that there are some inaccuracies, and that purebred academics consider citizen-gathered knowledge to be the scourge of good research, but it's a good starting point, and there's so much out there to read and learn and know, too, that you are helped immensely, rather than detracted or hindered, by the hyperlinks.

when was the last time you did just one organizational/communication type thing at a time? i agree that it's good to focus, but you can be organized and multi-task at once while sitting at the computer! (cc and bcc, anyone?)

when was the last time you met someone new just by reading his or her words in print (in the newspaper, in a book, whatever)? i'll give you that there are some sketch-tastic people online, but there are some perfectly normal ones, and the ones you know in person aren't always that cool anyway. plus, hey, i'm online too, and i'm not bad! [i'm just drawn that way.] (<-- if you don't get it, google it.)

so for several reasons, my unabashed answer to the doubters is: why not?!

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Tuesday, April 24, 2007

Ummmmmmmmmmmmm

i don't know if any other unfortunate souls fall into the same unsuspecting demographic as i, but our airtel landline regularly subjects us to spam -- automated phone calls that cause you to say hello at least twice before the stupid canned music kicks in with some sort of unnecessary marketing message right after.

usually it's something to do with buy something and win something else. i never stick around long enough to find out. but at least the message will start with a fairly normal greeting, like, "hum aapko ek naye offer ke baare mein bataana chahte hain..." (i'm discounting the long-drawn-out, mis-emphasized and highly enthusiastic "hell-looo!" that is usually the first warning sign of do-not-call-ignoring misery to come.)

but, wait for it,

this time the message was, "hello! kya aap in garmiyon main feel kar rahe hain hot, hot?"

(i kid you not, this is verbatim, including the comma which indicates a pregnant pause of just the right length.)

now i wish i had waited to hear more. only the prospect of permanent brain damage scared me enough to click the "end" button on the phone.

airtel clearly needs a life.

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Sunday, April 22, 2007

Word Of The Day

dishabille (dɪsə'biːl, -'bɪl):

the state of being in undress. reflective of the fact that summer is here!


the un-word of the day, for udayan's etymological edification:

irregardless:

Chiefly N. Amer.

In non-standard or humorous use: regardless.

1912 in WENTWORTH Amer. Dial. Dict. 1923 Lit. Digest 17 Feb. 76 Is there such a word as irregardless in the English language? 1934 in WEBSTER (labelled Erron. or Humorous, U.S.). 1938 I. KUHN Assigned to Adventure xxx. 310, I made a grand entrance and suffered immediate and complete obliteration, except on the pay-roll, which functioned automatically to present me with a three-figure cheque every week, ‘irregardless’, as Hollywood says. 1939 C. MORLEY Kitty Foyle xxvii. 267 But she can take things in her stride, irregardless what's happened. 1955 Publ. Amer. Dial. Soc. XXIV. 19, I don't think like other people do and irregardless of how much or how little dope would cost me [etc.]. 1970 Current Trends in Linguistics X. 590 She tells the pastor that he should please quit using the word ‘irregardless’ in his sermons as there is no such word. 1971 M. MCSHANE Man who left Well Enough iv. 96 The sun poured down on Purity irregardless of the fact that it received no welcome.

the fact that it exists in the dictionary does not mean it's correct usage. get with the program.

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Wednesday, March 21, 2007

Beware The Ides Of March

(and the vernal equinox, while we're at it)

due warning to the wellesley college alumnae association and wee eff ess:

do not piss me off. it does not bode well for you. you will receive the death stare, and quite possibly a long e-mail to boot.

one such e-mail is in the works. another might be, if i can muster up the time to figure out how to reach the CEO of cafe coffee day.

i'm stylin'.

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Monday, February 05, 2007

I'm Incorrigible

i know that checking my email compulsively won't make grad school responses come in any faster (or any more positive). but so far i'm 0 for 0, and i'm getting really antsy. plus i have nothing better to do (since i'm gainfully unemployed -- unless you count french transcription, which i don't.)

so gmail it is. over and over again.

uurrrrrgh!!!

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Monday, January 15, 2007

Say What?

from an NYT article on the increasing ubiquity of advertising:
Last month, after some “Got Milk?” billboards started emitting the odor of chocolate chip cookies at San Francisco bus stops, many people complained, and the city told the California Milk Processing Board to turn off the smell.

from the first day of french class:
teacher: "when you think of french, or france, what comes to your mind?"
totally ghaat but very enthusiastic student: "the eiffel tower, and leonardo da vinci."

and from the talented hand of one ms. spacecoyote (<http://spacecoyote.com>): the simpsonzu! <http://www.deviantart.com/deviation/46036660/>
(mirror pick@flick[r], in case she gets so popular the link dies: <http://flickr.com/photos/girlfish1303/358155313/>)

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Sunday, December 10, 2006

Yes, It Matters

i love them all dearly, but i can just see the money-managing, goal-oriented, future-thinking business-school types i know squirming with dissatisfaction here and wondering what the hell difference it makes what exact colour the sky was a hundred years ago.

but this article, from the NYT, makes perfect sense to me.

Air-Index Impressionism
By JOHN GLASSIE
Published: December 10, 2006

“Without the fog, London wouldn’t be a beautiful city,” the French painter Claude Monet wrote to his wife, Alice, during one of his long visits to England from France. Few Londoners would have agreed with his statement at the time, when the city was choked by the smog of the Industrial Revolution, but no one argues with the beauty of the colorful skies he began painting there between 1899 and 1901. Pollution has never looked quite as attractive as when seen through Monet’s eyes.

Now there is evidence that Monet’s atmospheric images of London were not Impressionist concoctions but a result of highly accurate observation. According to a paper published by two environmental scientists in August, the paintings (nearly 100 of which still exist) may “provide useful information in the analysis of the London fogs and air quality during this period” — a period before pollution levels were routinely recorded.

In their study, Jacob Baker and John E. Thornes of the University of Birmingham analyzed the position of the sun in 9 of the 19 paintings in Monet’s “Houses of Parliament” series. There was “a perfect correlation,” Thornes says, between the solar positions in the images, the actual solar positions derived from astronomical records and the dates on which Monet said, in letters to Alice, that he began the works. “We can date, almost to within 15 minutes, when he first put the sun onto certain images,” Thornes says. Having found some quantitative information in the paintings, Baker and Thornes say they hope to find more. “We believe,” Thornes says, “that we can basically deconstruct the images to work out how much smoke would have to be in the air to create that visibility and those colors in, say, February 1900.”

Some art historians doubt the London paintings hold this much documentary evidence, pointing out, among other things, that Monet continued to work on many of the images after he returned to his studio in Giverny, France. “There’s no question that Monet was astonishingly allegiant to what lay in front of him,” the Monet scholar Paul Hayes Tucker says. “But at the same time, for example, he had a penchant for pinks. He always was trying to sneak pinks into pictures throughout his career.”

Thornes concedes that “it’s still just a hypothesis” but maintains that “we’re fairly optimistic that we’ll get something out of it.”


you see, in the long run, it's not going to end poverty or save darfur or cure cancer or make some dude rich through stock market shenanigans. but investigating, unlayering, rediscovering the past, at least for me, makes my present existence more understandable, more dimensional. whether it's etymology or calligraphy or tristan + isolde, it informs my world.

(and monet, to me, believe it or not, is prettier than money.)

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Monday, November 20, 2006

Sick

one of my favourite poems:

"I cannot go to school today,"
Said little Peggy Ann McKay.
"I have the measles and the mumps,
A gash, a rash and purple bumps.
My mouth is wet, my throat is dry,
I'm going blind in my right eye.
My tonsils are as big as rocks,
I've counted sixteen chicken pox
And there's one more--that's seventeen,
And don't you think my face looks green?
My leg is cut--my eyes are blue--
It might be instamatic flu.
I cough and sneeze and gasp and choke,
I'm sure that my left leg is broke--
My hip hurts when I move my chin,
My belly button's caving in,
My back is wrenched, my ankle's sprained,
My 'pendix pains each time it rains.
My nose is cold, my toes are numb.
I have a sliver in my thumb.
My neck is stiff, my voice is weak,
I hardly whisper when I speak.
My tongue is filling up my mouth,
I think my hair is falling out.
My elbow's bent, my spine ain't straight,
My temperature is one-o-eight.
My brain is shrunk, I cannot hear,
There is a hole inside my ear.
I have a hangnail, and my heart is--what?
What's that? What's that you say?
You say today is. . .Saturday?
G'bye, I'm going out to play!"


unfortunately, i really am feeling like i'm going to die [although i know for a fact that my equivalent of it being saturday would involve no more app work. which situation is not foreseeable for a little while now :(]

please leave me sympathy and lurrve in the comments section! (after all, what are public blogs for if not to publish the minutest details about your life and mind and then wait impatiently for people to acknowledge that they intently read your every word?)

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Tuesday, November 07, 2006

Isn't It Just, Like, Awesome

when it's 4 am and you're tirelessly (read: exhaustedly but doggedly) writing important emails to important people and on your 5th proofread before you hit "send", you catch a potentially-fatal typo?

i feel blessed when that happens. because my brain is so dead i could just be writing emails that say "cucumber cucumber cucumber" and wouldn't know the difference until that crucial 5th proofread.

i need a less sore throat, a cheerleader (make that a cheerleading squad), a campaign manager, a perfect writing sample, a steady source of ice cream, and a procrastination alarm that honks loudly in my ear and jiggles the screen like MSN messenger whenever i use the facebook to avoid doing work.

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Tuesday, October 31, 2006

Haiku For Digs

what the original nomad wants, the original nomad gets.

here you have it:

Clock chimes midnight. Blue
glare from laptop screen. Keys click.
A cold smile. "A-ha."


call it the poetic imagination, or the faustian myth at work, or whatever, but i couldn't help but envision you as intense, dressed in black, sharp, nocturnal. perfect for halloween!

hope it satisfies the requirements ;)

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Sunday, September 10, 2006

On Keeping A Journal

some of susan sontag's stuff about self was just in the NYT, apparently my only source of good literature these days:

Superficial to understand the journal as just a receptacle for one’s private, secret thoughts — like a confidante who is deaf, dumb and illiterate. In the journal I do not just express myself more openly than I could to any person; I create myself.

The journal is a vehicle for my sense of selfhood. It represents me as emotionally and spiritually independent. Therefore (alas) it does not simply record my actual, daily life but rather — in many cases — offers an alternative to it.

There is often a contradiction between the meaning of our actions toward a person and what we say we feel toward that person in a journal. But this does not mean that what we do is shallow, and only what we confess to ourselves is deep. Confessions, I mean sincere confessions of course, can be more shallow than actions. I am thinking now of what I read today (when I went up to 122 Bd. St-G to check for her mail) in H’s journal about me — that curt, unfair, uncharitable assessment of me which concludes by her saying that she really doesn’t like me but my passion for her is acceptable and opportune. God knows it hurts, and I feel indignant and humiliated. We rarely do know what people think of us (or, rather, think they think of us)... Do I feel guilty about reading what was not intended for my eyes? No. One of the main (social) functions of a journal or diary is precisely to be read furtively by other people, the people (like parents + lovers) about whom one has been cruelly honest only in the journal. Will H. ever read this?

i enjoyed reading the diary of a young girl, zlata's diary, et al in my supposedly-angsty early teens. but i always wondered whether these girls -- and other diarists -- knew that what they were writing would someday become fodder for the masses. (and it is fodder -- look how people gobble up the unutterably dry prose of franz kafka, for instance, to find the rare gem! everyone's a voyeur.) how embarrassing it might have been for anne frank to find out that her nascent love affair with peter van pels was being discussed in umpteen sixth-standard classrooms... or how flattering. who knows? perhaps everyone's an exhibitionist -- else how could you explain the burgeoning autobiographical genre section in any self-respecting bookstore?

me, i always wanted my real thoughts (defined separately from random public blog entries, which are thoughtfully composed but never as significant) to be kept as intensely private as possible. i always let on that my diaries existed, and have even shared snippets of them with certain people. but noone gets the whole thing. some things i don't even write down!

are diaries really supposed to be read, though? (especially if they're on paper, in one of those little archies autographbooks/diaries/journals that come with a lock and key?) and by whom: just anyone or only those people who matter?

in fact, let's assume for a second that it's only you reading your own work. if so, then why say in writing what you can safely say to yourself in your head and never have found out by anyone else? or write -- and then destroy it! why the big need for florid philosophizing and dark revelations, if you know there might be people who want to read (and possibly publish) your innermost thoughts? god, even love letters get published, and sonnets that possibly reveal homoerotic tendencies in their famous authors... it's quite terrifying, even if some of these people are talented and their works a good addition to the english canon!

(i'll allow that you might want to re-read your words... but gosh, i hardly do; in fact, i mostly cringe when i go back to old writing!)

also, if you address yourself to a fictional reader, are you not supposing the presence of an "other" at the receiving end of all your ponderings? is it not you inflicting your mental wanderings on some inanimate object that's compelled to "listen" to your issues, even if without offering advice?

is there such a thing as totally private writing, just for the self?

(all this is not to deny that by purging your writing -- deleting email, tearing up a diary, erasing a word document -- or by not writing at all, you are erasing (or never creating) a most honest record of your thoughts, reactions, and feelings... it's just to consider that perhaps if you write at all, you inevitably risk being read. or perhaps you anticipate it. whatever happened to wanting privacy? hello, facebook "notes" and status updates and mini-feeds...)

i wonder what susan sontag would have had to say about blogs. essentially public journals that can be uncomfortably intimate -- often without meaning to be or knowing that they are, often with the precise intention of being so.

The coming of the orgasm has changed my life. I am liberated, but that’s not the way to say it. More important: it has narrowed me, it has closed off possibilities, it has made the alternatives clear and sharp. I am no longer unlimited, i.e. nothing.

Sexuality is the paradigm. Before, my sexuality was horizontal, an infinite line capable of being infinitely subdivided. Now it is vertical; it is up and over, or nothing.

. . .

The orgasm focuses. I lust to write. The coming of the orgasm is not the salvation but, more, the birth of my ego. I cannot write until I find my ego. The only kind of writer I could be is the kind who exposes himself.. . .To write is to spend oneself, to gamble oneself. But up to now I have not even liked the sound of my own name. To write, I must love my name. The writer is in love with himself. . .and makes his books out of that meeting and that violence.

uhmm. writing like creation of self. writing like exploring sexuality. interesting. personally, i continue to write, but i would like the satisfaction that i get to keep to myself all the things i really want to; for the rest... well, you can post in the comments section, so quite evidently you're privy to it!

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Saturday, August 05, 2006

A Tiny Little Wee Portion Of The Doctoring The English

my response to bombay addict's contest:

(Imagined response by a man to a shaadi.com posting.)

Hellow sweet Ms. Preeti,

Myself called as Raju, my pleasher to meet u. I am reading ur ad on the shaadi.com and getting very exited. U are matching all my martial needs. Also many other sweet pretty girls are not answering the my mails so I am having high hopes in your situation as I am only wanting girls of good background and pure culture only. Also on top of that ur good looks are very sweet and beautiful. Ur the wheatish complection is very nice nad sweet.

I am now wanting to make the frandship with u and soon after be making u my first and only wife as per proper Hindu customs and good Indian culture, and also I am hoping to be having many children soon soon. Myself MBA pass, having good features and decent family, vegetarian 54 170 carrier oriented. And nowadays so many girls are wanting such boys of more better quality no? I sure u will like me.

So following that please to be reverting at ur earliest convenience Preeti. My esteemed fly will be waiting impatiently to meet u. My email id is shahrukh_lower_420@hotmail.com. Please Preeti u are my last hope u must write back or I will suicide maa kasam I'm telling u now only for once and all I cant sleep in the night I am spending very much time in deep sadeness and wanting good wife and good life. So please respond.

Regards
Raju


(this post was not inspired by: a. my own sketchtastic online encounters with indian men purporting to be my raj; b. mangled letters to agony aunt columns in leading bombay newspapers; c. men named raju with whom i was supposed to go on blind dates. oh, no. not at all. i wouldn't poke fun at those things/people online. never ever. *giggle*)

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