At This Rate

so far this finals period i have written:

7 pages for heather
17 pages for peter and zack
25 pages for david

i'm currently at 32 pages for ania, aiming for about 40ish.

plus umpteen emails and facebook wall posts, some even with creative bent (one specific person has taken responsibility for precisely 97.3% of my prolific email production -- but the facebook monster is a separate and formidable sinkhole for words words words).

all in less than 3 weeks.

at this rate, i could be done with a dissertation in 6 months. it'd be mad painful (think of the red bull cans i'd accumulate... and the jitters that would keep me bouncing at 4 am... and the amount of wheat thins i'd have to consume...), and it might not even be that good, and i'd keel over and die right after...

but hot damn, i'd be a doctor of awesome!

Two Oversized Ironies Of Finals Week

i'm writing papers on madness and hell.

Negatory

for as long as i can remember i've hated the words "weak", "struggle", "try", "incapable" -- for their overall negative valences, really, but especially when used in relation to myself.

here's another "no" word that actually means something good: never. like, "never never never never never" (cf. king lear, who's currently chewing my brains). but also like, "never again [will i get myself into such a ridiculous pickle over final papers]."

n-e-v-e-r.

someone remind me of this week when it's late april 2008 and i'm frolicking like a fairy instead of writing like a fiend?

Romeo And Juliet

i remember watching baz luhrmann's william shakespeare's romeo + juliet for the first time 10 years ago, under perfectly delightful circumstances (read: sitting next to my first "boyfriend"). but even without 14-year-old girlishness factored in, shakespeare's text was powerful enough, even to my then-untrained ear, to jet the movie straight to my all-time favourites list. i think leo might have had something to do with it, too (no surprises there...) anyway, the important thing is that i didn't pay much attention at the time to the siren who crooned sultrily at the capulets' ball as a drugged romeo first laid eyes on a fairylike juliet.

fast forward 3 years, to when i finally figured out the significance of sade (and how her name was actually pronounced).

and then cut to another 7 later. the song -- in all its spectacular brevity -- has very unexpectedly made it to the top of my playlist. it may actually be the most intense song i own. [apparently sade may have had something to do with the lyrics -- unclear -- but the voice is that of des'ree. no matter, still hot.] more important thing is that this admission comes from the girl who usually vacillates between trance, hip-hop and hindi remixes. hua kya hai mujhe!?

Kissing You (Love Theme from Romeo + Juliet)

Pride can stand a thousand trials
The strong will never fall
But watching stars without you
My soul cries

Heaving heart is full of pain
Oooh, oooh, the aching
'Cause I'm kissing you, oooh
I'm kissing you, oooh

Touch me deep, pure and true
Give to me forever
'Cause I'm kissing you, oooh
I'm kissing you, oooh

Where are you now
Where are you now
'Cause I'm kissing you
I'm kissing you, oooh